The Blithe

I have been spending a lot of time in recent years staring at screens, myself in the mirror, blank walls, etc., just letting time pass but not actually doing anything much. Not utilising the skills I have and the tools I have around me to improve and move forward. I’ve been neglecting my friendships and adding extra stress to my other relationships in turn. I can very easily visualise a version of me that is better at “doing”. Getting up early, exercising, eating better, managing my time, however, the version I picture is always a little too perfect, like the kind of rom-com-esque version of myself, a modest, feminine Hugh Grant type. I’m fully aware where this image comes from, many different things all jamming this fake person into my mind as a direct comparison to myself and my choices at all times.

However, I do think that there may be parts of it that I can actually achieve, gaining control of certain areas to better the whole; it’s just hard to visualise and plan where to start. I abandoned any form of life planning a little while ago, as it felt as though it kept not working out or being interrupted by urgent and sudden matters. But maybe now is the time for a round 2, a different type of life planning. Not these “90-day hard” challenges and “life coach” influencers that are always managing to do more than anyone because it’s their job, and therefore they can do that stuff all the time! But, a more slapdash re-distribution of priorities, making sure to really pay attention to what I want and need from life, the things that make me happy and feel like I’m living a “good” life.

To start, this. A non-descript website that functions purely as a space for me to do whatever I want to it, no specific rules, just the limits of what I can do in terms of website design. I want this to be able to be my space to document and evaluate, keeping a record of various thoughts, but making sure I am putting something out into the world at the same time. It also feels a lot less scary spewing my thoughts into my own controlled environment instead of social media or some other sharing platform. I am not saying I’m going to stay away from social media as unfortunately it is paramount for any form of modern industry, but more saying at least when push comes to shove I have my own small corner of the internet to hide in.

Let this be the day 1 in figuring out how to live life in a way that feels right for me, and I will try to hold myself accountable in all areas possible, but I cannot make any promises about how smooth and frequent the progress will be, hence the name “The Blithe”. If you have read this far, thank you for being here. It means a lot, I hope to see you again soon!